声音 by 张敬轩

zZzZz.. hate my life.. the way its being controlled.. cant they jus realise dat i'm already 21 and approaching 22!! sux.. I hate myself for being so useless.. unable to retaliate jus bcos i dun wanna start a chaos in the family n hurt someone.. sux sux sux.. U got me one step closer to the edge.. & I'M ABOUTTA BREAK!! I fear the day when i explode.. I seem to sense it approaching..

ulcer hurts.. its already the 3rd day.. applied both chinese & western medicine..(my supervisor bought the western med for me.. kekkeke..) sore gums oso.. wat the.. hurts when i eat... hurts when i drink... kaoz..

concussed in the bus jus now.. wonder if i'm too tired, emotionally or physically? slept at 12.30 last nite.. or its jus the music i'm listening to.. Zhang Jing Xuan was on my playlist.. his songs r nice man.. r&b kinda.. wonder when mariel will start writing tis kinda songs.. mwehehhehe.. anyway... slept for most part of the journey.. woke up at the junction jus b4 my office.. n saw an accident.. being an industrial area.. the accident involved giant sized vehicles.. a lorry.. a container truck.. and another huge truck.. woah.. luckily doesnt involve caltex's tank trucks.. arbo jialat liaoz..

*yawnz* seems like i have loads of things to do.. but i jus cant seem to settle myself down to do.. gotta create a request form for the new SOX procedure.. gotta type out my written lyrics.. gotta force lyrics out for mariel's tunes.. gotta practice guitar.. gotta write more lyrics.. gotta listen to mariel's songs.. + comment (i seem to be giving the same comments everytime..) gotta do a tagboard for tis place cos other tags seems to sux.. gotta redo my irc script cos my stupid bro del it in the process of fixing my comp.. gotta file those increasingly scary D/Os which is growing to 4 3" files.. gotta get more plants for my small tank n arrange it.. gotta make more emotions for my moods indicator.. zzz... most impt thing.. gotta get more zzz.. my dark eye rings r coming out.. main distractions which prevents me from doing all these.. hmm.. tv.. nba.. lazyness..

arkk..